How can I flow from the center when I'm all over the place?
How can I flow from the center, when I'm so exhausted it feels normal to be exhausted? (Which by the way it is not normal to be exhausted).
How can I flow from the center when the one person who has always been there for me is dying?
How can I flow from the center when I'm too exhausted to notice that I'm no longer centered?
She taught me how to love unconditionally by loving me unconditionally.
She taught me that every moment can be filled with beauty if that is how you create it.
The simplest meal would be served on the most beautiful dishes.... dishes of green, orange, purple, blue, and pink.
There would be a center piece with crystals and flowers at every meal. Every meal was special because she brought beauty.
She taught me generosity, kindness, patience, laughter.
Oh,how we laughed!
And we still laugh. As she sits up in her wheelchair, refusing to let go of any quality of life, even while she's dying.
She does not feel well. She knows she's dying. Yet she refuses to give in to letting go of the quality of life.
Decadence, that's what she always said. Chocolate, Beautiful hotel rooms, Colorful clothes, Laughter, Love, Oceans, Dolphins,
Flowing back to my Center.
From this place I create.
From this place I flow with life.
From this place I choose.
From this place I spend so many moments. As many as I can with her. While she is on this physical planet.
From this place I am connected.
From this place I flow with her spirit.
From this place I experience her
And all there is.
Let's consider that there are many possibilities. It's not always mental illness.
Sometimes experiencing visions, fogginess, seeing ghosts, receiving audio messages can be a mental health issue; other times it's a spiritual awakening. Sometimes, it's both. Either can feel like a crisis, or an emergency. How can one really know the difference? As a clinician experienced in both psychic and psychiatric worlds, I have learned to identify each experience. Both need attention and support, but in different ways.
Click on "Is it a Spiritual Emergency" button for a whole website of documented information on this subject.
"Just because it seems like schizophrenia doesn't mean it is" (S. Najjar, MD, neurologist, 2009).
If you or your family have strong doubts that you are mis-diagnosed, it may be worth a follow up with a medical doctor / neurologist. An illness called NMDA-Receptor Autoimmune Encephalitis may be attacking your brain. This illness is especially common in women and not-so common to test for...... to learn more, click the "article" button below.
Click on "Is it Medical" button for a whole website of documented information on this subject.
All psychotic episodes, no matter what the cause, can have lingering effects. It's worth working with a psychotherapist to help integrate the experience, release the emotional & mental pains, and regain your true self or find your now-self.
Write about what you want.
Notice what thoughts come up that are not in alignment with what you want.
Take some time to address each of those thoughts and/or beliefs. Keep working with them until they shift so that you have the alignment you want. These thoughts & beliefs will either shift, or you will need to let go of them completely.
Be honest with yourself.
Write about you want some more. Draw it, paint it, collage it, dance it or move your body in some way to express it.
Check in with yourself about whether there is any background thoughts or beliefs that could get in the way. It's important to do this because when you put your statement out to the universe about what you want, if there are any background thoughts or beliefs that are not in alignment, they will get sent out to the universe as well, which will create a mixed message and in return, you will receive a mixed delivery. SO, taking the time to scan yourself again and again is very important. Doing the work that is needed to completely clear yourself is important. Waiting to put your message out to the universe is key so that the delivery is truly what you want.
Continue to write it, draw it, paint it, collage it, move your body to express it! Keep noticing the alignment of what you say you want and what your thoughts and beliefs are saying.
Once you are very clear, put your wish out to the universe.
State it (out loud).
Do it in an action.
When you state it, do it simply and clearly. DON'T say "and" this "and" that "and" ...... because that creates a mixed message. Just simply state "this is what I want" BOOM.
Let me give you an example. Let's say you want to manifest a place to live. You've already worked out all the thoughts and believes that aren't in alignment, such as: I can't afford it, I don't have enough money, I don't deserve that kind of place, I never had that before, This is good enough. (etc).
Some of the ways to work out those kind of thoughts are ~ collage the belief, notice where it came from (does it even make sense in the present time?), Notice if it is even yours (a parent's belief, a friend's belief). Dance the belief and allow your body to keep moving until a shift occurs, read positive thinking books, write about it until it shifts, or work with a therapist if you need help dealing with it, processing it, and shifting it for real.
Universe, I want a new place to live that is in (town) close to downtown, but with a country feeling. And I want it to have 3 bedrooms, a balcony, a yard, a dishwasher, allow all pets, and have compatible neighbors. I want this to happen by the end of this month. So be it.
BOOM. That's it.
Your job now, is to let go. Surrender. Trust that it will come.
This morning I saw dolphins jumping in the ocean bay.... sitting with my family & friends, enjoying beautiful Florida weather, I am present to how fortunate I am; and to the greatness that is available on this earth.
If I look backwards, I see heartache. If I look harder, I see wonder. I heal the heartache. I focus on the wonder. Both are important.
"Every day in every way, my life gets better and better" said a dear friend to me many years ago.... such a great affirming statement to repeat.
What beautiful things are happening in your life? What moment can give you that spark?
Spring is coming....
Flowers are blooming
Leaves are budding
The Sun is Shining
Look around you. Take a moment to notice. Breath it in. Allow yourself to experience a moment of joy.
Breathe in that moment of Joy. Let it expand in your heart. Let it expand throughout your body.
While feeling this joy, tap your third eye (center of the forehead) - this will send the feeling of joy down to your DNA level, and hold it in your memory. It's a way to hold beautiful memories in the cells of your body.
I recently read the poem The Invitation by Oriah... such incredible words. I've read it several times before, but this time when I read it, I posed each question, each thought to myself.
What do I ache for? Aliveness
Do I dare to dream? Yes
I am capable of all of life's GREAT adventures!
I have touched the center of my sorrows, my pain, my fears, and I have returned!
I am Open.
I am Safe.
I can dance! I can move! I can drum! I can rest.... I can feel!
I see the beauty of life. I see it everyday! And I let it in.
It's in beauty, I have returned.
When I was 12 years old my father stopped abusing me. He also stopped talking to me, playing games with me, or interacting with me in any special way. Had he actually been becoming a healthier man, he would have stopped abusing me, but continued to connect with me. Instead, I got dropped. I carried this experience with me for many years, and re-enacted it in many situations. I broke up with every person I dated. They got dropped. As I look back, I recognize that many of those partners were not right for me and that it was okay that I broke up with them. For a long time, I stayed in a relationship that wasn't healthy. It mirrored my relationship with my father in many ways. It had good parts, and not so good parts.
It took great courage to stay with it. And as I reflect on it, I see she was my greatest teacher. How else would I have seen so much? Where else could I have compared my chaotic childhood experiences to learn and understand enough to become myself? How else would I have reached a place of knowing how worthy I truly am, if I didn't have the mirror reflecting back at me, saying - is this what you want? Is this how you want to be treated? Does this feel familiar? Is it a good familiar?
I went back and forth many times. I kept wanting it to be different. I wanted it to be healthy. I think we both learned along the way. Finally, I saw the pattern merging - the same pattern I had seen many times before; and I said NO! No, I will not live in this pattern anymore. No. I will not go through this again.
I will not be yelled at; I will not witness rage; I will not be put in the backseat; I will not be cancelled on again and again; I will not be cheated on, or taken for granted. I will not defend this love, not if you are not standing by my side, defending it with me.
At last, I saw it. And, I told her, we are not good partners.... so she left.
Months went by, I started to heal. I got stronger. I moved forward. And at times, I would reflect. At one point, I became concerned. I thought - she got dropped.
Then I looked at myself, at my story. And I realized she helped me heal that last piece; the piece of me that was still waiting - waiting for connection, waiting for the healthy decision to be made, waiting for the love to show up. So today, on Valentine's Day, 2015, I am no longer waiting. I showed up.
It takes courage to walk this path of life. It takes courage to find yourself. It takes courage to let go of the things and people that no longer serve you. It takes courage to dismiss the ego that feeds us self-doubting thoughts, it takes courage to grow, it takes courage to heal, and it takes courage to show up.
The last few days of a year always feel like a bridge to me. Standing midway on a bridge, I could look back at 2014, looking ahead is the upcoming year. Now as January 1 approaches, I am no longer in the middle of the bridge, but closer to one end of it. Just a couple of days ago, I facilitated a meeting and within the group, I led a ceremony of letting go & creating. I'm going to tell you about that ceremony now. Feel free to do it for yourself, today or tomorrow, or anytime that you are at a crossroad, looking back & moving forward. You can do this in a group, with someone special, or on your own.
Gather these items: 2 candles, a sheet of paper, markers / colored pencils / a pen.
Find a comfortable space where you will not be interrupted (inside or outside). Sit in a relaxed position and place one candle in front of you. Light it. Have your sheet of paper and writing materials nearby. Take a few minutes to close your eyes and think about the past year (or period of time). As you remember different parts of the year, you may recall both good and bad times. Bring everything to the forefront. As you think of things you want to let go of - experiences, situations, people, feelings, characteristics, interactions state them out loud and imagine you are throwing them into the fire (the lit candle). As you remember things you want to keep - accomplishments, experiences, interactions, feelings, relationships, characteristics write them down on the paper. Write them in any format you choose - use color, draw them, write the words out, make them into a design - whatever you feel drawn to do. Spend several minutes offering what you want to let go of to the fire and writing down that which you want to keep. Add to the paper new ideas as well - things you think of that you'd like to have in your life, but don't right now. Once you feel really complete with offering all that you want to let go of into the fire, light the second candle. Place the paper with everything written on it in front of you and put the 2nd candle on top of it. Close your eyes and spend a few minutes breathing and imagining the life you want. Imagine everything you wrote on that paper exists in your life right now. Imagine that as you go into the new year (or the new phase) this is your life. Spend a few minutes really breathing this into yourself. Expand yourself, with your breath, making space for your life to be exactly how you want it.
Blessings for the new year!
Instead of thinking - "What was I doing?" Think - "What was I learning?"
Instead of thinking - "I did it again!" Think - "I'll catch it next time!"
Instead of thinking - "That was stupid" Think - "It's okay, next time I'll do better."
Be as kind to yourself as you would be to your best friend......
Instead of waiting for someone to rescue you or to rescue someone else Be the hero of your own life
Instead of expecting someone else to create your life Be the creator of your life
Instead of being depressed about how your life is going Be an inventor and change it
Instead of following every idea that pops into your head Be committed to one great idea
Instead of telling the same old story over and over again Be the one who tells a new story
You get to choose what your life looks like and how it goes. Remember, if the story you chose isn't going well, stay open and flexible so that you can Choose a New One!
Instead of thinking you should already know Practice Self-Acceptance
Instead of thinking you should be like the rest Practice Self-Allowance
Instead of staying stuck in not knowing Practice finding new knowledge
Instead of rethinking all that didn't work Practice envisioning what you want
Here's an exercise ~ Imagine yourself in a different role; a role that inspires you, a role that you see as strong, empowered, and capable. Practice visualizing yourself in this role. Choose someone that you already see as successful in this role, like a celebrity, or someone in your community; remember to pick someone that you look up to, someone that is strong and capable, someone that is honest and loving, someone that is making a difference in his or her community or in the world. Watch this person - see how this person carries herself, what her posture is like, how she smiles, how she communicates with others; notice how you carry yourself, how you stand, how you walk, how you smile, how you interact; notice the differences. Practice carrying yourself the way the role model you chose does. Notice how it feels in your body to walk this way, notice how it feels and looks to smile this way, notice how others respond when you communicate this way. Choose what you like about this new way of being; make adjustments to what you don't like, or to what doesn't quite feel like you. Make adjustments until you feel really good in yourself. This is one of the ways you can learn from someone who has already learned this way of being. Keep practicing and keep noticing. Keep making
adjustments so that you get more and more in touch with the creation of this new you.
The purpose of being in this human body, on this planet now, is to grow to your highest potential.
One of my favorite movies is The Matrix. Here are a few points that I love about this movie;
Why am I sharing these clips from this movie? I am using them as metaphors to make some points. It's a chance to both share a bit about me and also give you some thoughts about what's possible if you choose to work with me.
Living two Lives - that has felt like my life at times, especially when I've worked by day at a mundane job because at night, whether it be after "work" or during my sleeping state, I get all kinds of requests! Requests from those I knew and those I never knew who have died and are now in spirit, requests from Shamans, Angels, Guides, and other Energies. I also get all kinds of information - information about what's to come, for myself as well as those in my life, for my clients, and for people I don't even know. Sometimes, I get a "download" (that's what I call it) and I have no idea who it's for... then I meet the person that it's for and a flash of the download goes through me - that's how I know that information is for this person. Of course, I then share it. But sometimes, I've done a ton of spiritual work during the night - talking to different souls, visiting people, and tying loose ends. Sometimes, I end up making tough decisions during the day (tough for me on a personal level) because I know what's coming or what's needed and I know that ultimately I am a Spiritual Healer working for the better-ment of the universe, for all souls. Of course, I get to practice my own lessons - lessons of attachment, of letting go, insecurities, and mostly to practice stepping into what I teach, over and over again, being unstoppable in creating a life I love, facing fears and doing it anyway, and being confident and empowered in my choices of life.
Blue or Red? Of course, I chose to go down the rabbit hole, and anyone else who has made this choice, knows there's no going back! Once you choose to go down the rabbit hole, and essentially discover the truth of the universe, you know too much, and there's no going back; and who would want to? Maybe in the very beginning... when you know what you know, but you still remember what it was like to choose from the illusion, you could go back, but even then, it's like being on a bridge and having to decide which way to go - do you go back to where you were? Or do you keep moving forward? Moving forward takes you into the unknown.... think of it as an adventure, make it a game - something that is fun for you to explore. The point is.... keep exploring, keep going deeper into the rabbit hole / into the universe and discover it! Discover yourself. This is where you will find your true self. Don't think you are, know it. / What are you waiting for? / I can only show you the door, you have to walk through it. This is when I come in.... as your guide, your mentor, your therapist, your psychic/medium - whatever name you want to give me; that is your choice, and so is walking through that door.
"How can my need for companionship ever compare to her need, when her need is of such severity? She would tell me she couldn't possibly leave her side for if she did something terrible may happen. She may use drugs! She may drink alcohol! Or something even worse could occur..... If she left her side, what would it be for? To sit and talk.... to eat... to hang out & relax. What kind of a evening would that be for a hero? A need to me was nothing to her. I was not at the edge of relapse, nor was I at the edge of death. I was not afraid. I simply wanted company. But that's no call for a hero. It was only a call for love. And that was not enough."
Sadness, Anger, Regret, & Obsessive thoughts are all natural components of the grieving process, but not knowing that can hook us back in.... back into unhealthy relationships. Due to deep sadness, or regret, or obsessive thoughts we re-consider, and try those crazy relationships again and again.
It's understandable. We want connection. How bout instead of (re)connecting with someone unhealthy, we try something new? How bout (re)connecting with self? How bout allowing for feelings of sadness, of regret, of anger, and how bout having those obsessive thoughts? How bout practicing something new; learning to hold uncomfortable feelings? Moments of regret? Because by holding them, they eventually let go.... because the only other thing they can do other then hold on, is let go. And with that, they're gone. Released. It may take a few times, but aren't you worth it? (The answer is YES!) Eventually, as you go through the grieving steps, you reach the last step of the process - ACCEPTANCE.
Acceptance for what is.
And in the meantime, while you're riding the emotional roller coaster, waiting to get to acceptance, you could practice new tools. One method that works super well for most is the stop sign technique - for example; for every obsessive thought that arises, imagine holding up your hand (like a stop sign) and powerfully using your amazing energy to send that thought away.
Take time to nurture yourself - take baths, naps, sip teas, listen to music, walk in the woods, watch funny movies or other enjoyable, distracting shows. Most importantly, practice ALLOWANCE. Decide that however you are is okay. Trust yourself, know that this will pass. Allowing leads to letting go, which leads to freedom. And once you reach a place of freedom, you're ready to re-design your life.
Give yourself plenty of time to heal and recover. Stay committed to your recovery. Practice acceptance & allowance. * Just like you would give acceptance & allowance to your best friend, give it to yourself. You are worth it!
Remember - Staying stuck keeps you stuck. Letting go and moving forward is recovery.
Breaking through this, or any challenge will lead to strength, new experience, confidence, and new life. You will become a strong, healthy, independent person.
There's an incredible phenomenon that occurs when people hang out together, especially on an ongoing basis. We actually start to bond to one another. It starts before we even see it; on an energy level. Our auras (the energy field we all have around us) touches, our feelers (think of energy-like fingers reaching out to discover the world around us) explore each other, and energetically we start to bond. Next, we start bonding on a physical level - through conversation, caring, eye contact, shared experiences, and so on. Before we know it, we have completely bonded. And.... in case you're still not sure, take note - we start talking like each other, we start thinking like each other, and then we make choices that the other would agree upon. The collective mind comes into effect. It's multi-faceted and it's one, all at the same time. As we walk the spiritual path, we start to pay attention to the company we keep. We take note of whether the group mind is a group we want to be part of our not. We start to notice our own individual thoughts and when we look at even one friend from the group we are no longer sure if we are in alignment. So.... we start to share with this one person our new perspective, our new understanding; we share this new path that we have discovered to find out if this bond can continue. There may be some interest, for perhaps the group is growing in the same way, at a similar pace. At other times, the group is not ready; and you want to break free. But it is painful. It's painful because there's a bond in place, on many levels, and while you recognize that you are no longer in alignment with this particular group consciousness, you don't know where else you belong. You also care about this person, or these people, so sometimes, you choose to continue to connect. But at what expense? What is it costing you to play so small? Especially when you know there's so much more available. It costs you vitality. It costs you joy. It costs you peace. It costs you continued growth.... aaah, you may grow, but it will be slower. Why allow those who are not ready to hold you back? A time will come where you will no longer tolerate the behaviors, situations, or circumstances that you once tolerated. You will recognize that the gossip, the chaos, the negativity no longer has a place in your life. All of this can be done in a way that feels supportive to you. No need to rush it. Honor yourself. Honor the process. Trust that you will find new people to bond with, new people to create the collective mind with - give yourself the chance by putting your focus in a new direction. Step out with confidence. Before you know it that incredible phenomenon will occur again, and it will be with those who help you to move forward, teach you new and wonderful things, and allow you to be your best self.
I was initially interested in Reiki to offer healing to my paternal grandmother who suffered many physical ailments throughout her life. The first time I visited her, after getting trained in Reiki I, I offered healing energy for her feet. I gave her a lot of Reiki, and once I was trained in level II Reiki, I was able to send it to her long distance (which was good b/c we lived in 2 different countries). Over the years it became easier for her to walk. She lived to be 96 years old. One of my favorite memories of our time together was when we went for walks. She would always find dimes, nickels, and quarters on the streets. She couldn't bend over to pick them up, but would point them out for me to pick up. One time we were walking through a park, lost in conversation when all of a sudden we noticed several men (in uniforms) running toward us.... to our surprise, we were walking through a football field, and to our greater surprise, we were walking through the middle of a football game! I still laugh today as I remember us "rushing" across that field. I put the word rushing in quotes because my grandmother was on crutches since she was a young adult and was not one to rush when on her feet. She was always grateful though, for that Reiki energy that gave her relief and allowed her many years of continued walking.
When I was a level 2 practitioner I offered long distance healing with a friend who was also level 2 Reiki. We sat together in my living room with the palms of our hands facing each other and sent Reiki to a womon in FL (from MA) who had cancer and was scheduled to have surgery. We sent her Reiki every night for 3 nights in a row. When she went into the hospital to have the surgery, they discovered the cancer was gone. This was a big break through for me! It gave me a new understanding in the healing power of Reiki. Before this experience, I attributed the healing experiences to coincidences, but after this happened, there was no doubt in my mind that Reiki truly does heal.
I later became a Reiki Master and started teaching Reiki. This has been one of my biggest joys! Being able to pass on this healing gift to others so that they can heal themselves and those they love is a true honor. I believe it is our birthright to have the ability to heal ourselves, and to offer this gift to others.
Reiki is an energy healing technique that is gentle and powerful at the same time. The wonderful thing about learning Reiki is that you can give this healing energy to yourself, your friends, your pets, your plants, your family. You can take it a step further and learn the 2nd level of Reiki which allows you to send it long distance to loved ones, to lands, and to larger communities. Second level Reiki also gives you permission to become a Reiki practitioner so that if you desire a way to bring in money through a healing arts modality, you could do this. It's great also for massage therapists, psychotherapists, nurses, mental health workers, gardeners, people who work with animals, and so on; to learn this healing art. Master level Reiki gives you a higher level of healing power and teaches you how to teach Reiki to others.
Reiki II example - (remote Reiki). If you have a loved one who could use some healing, you can send a long distance healing session. For example if a loved one in CA needs healing/support, you can send them healing energy and they will receive it, even without you having to get on a plane and fly out to see them in person.
I've been practicing Reiki since 1998, and have taught Reiki to many people over the years. Reiki is an energy-based healing modality; the energy comes from the universal life force; it doesn't drain you because you're using the energy that exists in the universe that is available to all of us. The point of getting attuned to Reiki, by someone who is attuned (or open) to Reiki, is that you also become opened to be able to channel the healing energy from the universe to you / through you and into someone else. The great thing about Reiki is anyone can do it!! Everyone is capable of it! The other great thing is, you get to receive the healing energy as your channeling it through for someone else, therefore everyone wins!
Imagine water flowing from a river, through a pipe, and into another body of water - this is Reiki - energy flowing from the universe, through you (or me), and into another person.
Reiki I: Become initiated into Reiki, get attuned to be able to channel the healing energy; learn the history including the great teachers, take a journey to find your Reiki guide in spirit; learn how to do a self healing. Physical level healing.
Reiki II: Get attuned to the symbols of healing; learn how to use the symbols that will enhance healing, learn how to give a long distance healing treatment; learn how to offer Reiki healing treatments on others. This level of Reiki certification allows you to become a Reiki Practitioner, if you desire to do so. Emotional & Mental level healing.
Reiki III is master level: Get attuned to master level symbols; learn how to pass an attunement on others, practice teaching Reiki. Spirit & Soul healing.
Interested parties should contact me directly, either by phone or using the contact form on this website.
The system I teach is Unlimited Reiki / Usui tradition.
So many times I heard people talk about zip lining with such enthusiasm. In fact it wasn't long before I did it that someone suggested we, a group I belong to all do it together - I thought - no way! But then, she, a lovely friend, suggested it & I didn't hesitate. I found myself saying, sure I'll do that!
I checked it out online first - an aerial obstacle course with zip lining. Sure, no problem, I thought to myself. Mind you, prior to this moment, I had been the least confident person in my body ever, especially when it came to anything that took coordination and balance. Plus, I was afraid of heights!
There were three options and of course, everyone in the group I was with wanted to do the most difficult one! I chose the beginner's. The friend who had invited me along, was a good sport, and did the "easy" course with me. She stayed by me the whole time, even as I I shook as I moved across each obstacle, and even though my friend is super coordinated and fearless, she was a good sport and a good support; and stayed with me. I moved slowly along, coaching myself the whole time. The rest of the group finished the course long before me and repeated it a couple of times.
My whole body shook as I moved from one obstacle to the next. In amazement, I made it through swinging ropes, the uneven steps, the ladders, and so on. At one point, I was up in the air going across a rope ladder - from one tree to the other, and while I was mid-way I started laughing. I laughed out loud! I was laughing at myself for attempting to move across this rope, mid-air, as if I was in good shape (which I wasn't) as if I knew how to climb a rope going sideways 30 feet up (which I didn't) but now I was in the middle of it - I had made it to there, so it only made sense to keep going! Knowing the best thing I could do is step upward... because the plank on the other end was further up than the one I started on, I reached my leg out and landed on a piece of rope. Can you guess? My foot went down! Now I had to climb up & across at the same time in order to get to the other side. I coached myself through the entire thing. I told myself "you can do it, trust yourself" and I did! Phew!!
Next came the zip lines - the words from the Matrix (one of my favorite movies) came to me - 'don't think about it, just do it' - It took several minutes to get my courage up. My friend waited on the other end of the line while I psyched myself up for it. At last I took the plunge! And there I was flying across the mountain waaaaaay up high!! And I yelled out loud as I went across. It was actually fun! But, each time I got to one end of the mountain, I had to get up onto a plank, go to the other side, and get onto another line. Each time I went through the same process of getting my courage up, using the words from the Matrix - "don't think about it, just do it" and by the end, the last few lines, I was zipping down that mountain having the time of my life!
One of the biggest things I learned that day was, I can do it! My body is capable. I have the strength, the coordination, the balance, and the know-how. It amazed me that my body just operated - before I even had a chance to think about what I needed to do, my body was doing it!
Toward the end, (on the second to last line) I was going across and didn't quite have enough umph to make it to the plank.... I started going back in the other direction, and ended up getting stuck in the middle! Now, before this moment, I would have thought I would have panicked, but I didn't! I just "hung out" there! What else could I do? I hung out there... and eventually a worker came along and through a rope over the line. He told me to hold onto it and he pulled me to the other end. It was in slow motion compared to how I had whipped across those lines and when I got to the plank it took all my strength to pull myself up onto it. I did it!
That day I learned how to count on my body's strength, coordination, and balance. To my surprise and delight, I learned it wasn't something I had to learn or even figure out, I just needed to trust.
There was a time when I was psychically open all the time. I saw"ghosts" everywhere, heard people's thoughts, cries, joys, and rage. Spirits were showing up in my bedroom, bathroom, and car demanding help.... talk about being overwhelmed! Not to mention, needing to set boundaries! I was helping so many people who were no longer in the physical body, I was literally providing therapy & not getting paid for it.
In recognizing this, I knew it was time to get a hold on my abilities, to become the master of my abilities vs. having them run the show). I started by telling spirits they weren't allowed to just show up and demand my attention. I became bigger than them by knowing my own spirit self as well as my physical self. I became stronger in myself by noting that my physical experiences had already put me through enough and that they couldn't scare me b/c I had already survived so much. I recognized my self-worthiness, and with this I could choose. I could choose when I wanted to be open and when I wanted privacy. (This works well in the physical world too, btw!)
I shut down certain parts of my psychic self so that I wouldn't see or hear everyone else's stuff all the time. I learned how to ground and center myself and I also learned how to open myself, but it was all based on what worked for me. It was no longer about what everyone else needed.
And from this place, I feel grateful. I am grateful for my abilities. I am grateful to be able to offer guidance to others. I recognize the importance of not allowing the psychic world to run me, b/c living in the physical world is important as well. I offer readings to folks who seek it and who exchange with me for my skills, either by providing their skills to me or by paying me monetarily (since I do live in this physical world). I do have a channel open for some spirits to seek assistance, and when they come I do respond. This is my way of serving the greater picture. I know that by serving spirits it supports the whole. Sometimes, I work with a person in physical form and a person in spirit form at the same time. For example I may help a womon (in physical form) and her sister (in spirit form) complete a relationship that didn't get completed while they were both in physical form. I may also help the spirit move on to a more peaceful place. By offering this service, I am helping both souls and ultimately, I am helping the greater evolution of humanity and the universe.
As the year of the snake comes to a close......
As the last few days of snake come to an end, I feel myself shedding - old thoughts are coming and going, and everything in my life is popping up both psychically and physically for a last minute review. The snake is no longer saying, take your time with this; it's saying - here it is, let it go now, and then before my mind has a moment to look much further, it's gone!
This year I have truly taken on "snake medicine" - I have learned to experience life without resistance, I have learned to transmute poison, I have learned equality & balance, I am not attached, but I am committed to sharing my gifts and passions with the world.
I thank snake medicine for helping me shed the old layers, for bringing me wisdom, desire, ambition, & resolution.
The year of the horse enters....
I am excited about the year of the horse - its medicine is about power, passion, and freedom! The first time the horse came to me was when I got trained in first degree Reiki. During the meditation to meet my Reiki spirit guide, a horse came to me. The funny part was - it was headless! (It kind of creeped me out.....) But I soon learned of its medicine and its message - I was very detached from my power! Since then, it has re-appeared several times with its head intact. Phew!
I am always grateful for horse medicine, and as 2014 begins, I look forward to its energy supporting me.
Horse brings beauty, power, freedom, and passion - it is a powerful force here to assist us all as we enter the year of allowing our true self to shine. This is the year to step fully into your true self, bring your passion forward, and manifest your desires!
As the energy shifts from snake to horse over these days, take time to meditate, contemplate, journal; be patient with yourself and allow yourself to shed. Remember, this is the snake's last chance to bring it's medicine to you before we fully enter into the year of the horse.
Consider what freedom means to you, think about what you're really passionate about / stop settling or giving into others or situations that don't fully inspire you. Get in touch with your inner power & allow the true you to really come througyou to become your true self.
Supriya Shanti practices coming from a place of contribution, unconditional love, freedom, & ease in all areas of her life. She is passionate about sharing her knowledge, insight, and healing abilities with all who come to her.