One of my favorite movies is The Matrix. Here are a few points that I love about this movie;
Why am I sharing these clips from this movie? I am using them as metaphors to make some points. It's a chance to both share a bit about me and also give you some thoughts about what's possible if you choose to work with me.
Living two Lives - that has felt like my life at times, especially when I've worked by day at a mundane job because at night, whether it be after "work" or during my sleeping state, I get all kinds of requests! Requests from those I knew and those I never knew who have died and are now in spirit, requests from Shamans, Angels, Guides, and other Energies. I also get all kinds of information - information about what's to come, for myself as well as those in my life, for my clients, and for people I don't even know. Sometimes, I get a "download" (that's what I call it) and I have no idea who it's for... then I meet the person that it's for and a flash of the download goes through me - that's how I know that information is for this person. Of course, I then share it. But sometimes, I've done a ton of spiritual work during the night - talking to different souls, visiting people, and tying loose ends. Sometimes, I end up making tough decisions during the day (tough for me on a personal level) because I know what's coming or what's needed and I know that ultimately I am a Spiritual Healer working for the better-ment of the universe, for all souls. Of course, I get to practice my own lessons - lessons of attachment, of letting go, insecurities, and mostly to practice stepping into what I teach, over and over again, being unstoppable in creating a life I love, facing fears and doing it anyway, and being confident and empowered in my choices of life.
Blue or Red? Of course, I chose to go down the rabbit hole, and anyone else who has made this choice, knows there's no going back! Once you choose to go down the rabbit hole, and essentially discover the truth of the universe, you know too much, and there's no going back; and who would want to? Maybe in the very beginning... when you know what you know, but you still remember what it was like to choose from the illusion, you could go back, but even then, it's like being on a bridge and having to decide which way to go - do you go back to where you were? Or do you keep moving forward? Moving forward takes you into the unknown.... think of it as an adventure, make it a game - something that is fun for you to explore. The point is.... keep exploring, keep going deeper into the rabbit hole / into the universe and discover it! Discover yourself. This is where you will find your true self. Don't think you are, know it. / What are you waiting for? / I can only show you the door, you have to walk through it. This is when I come in.... as your guide, your mentor, your therapist, your psychic/medium - whatever name you want to give me; that is your choice, and so is walking through that door.
"How can my need for companionship ever compare to her need, when her need is of such severity? She would tell me she couldn't possibly leave her side for if she did something terrible may happen. She may use drugs! She may drink alcohol! Or something even worse could occur..... If she left her side, what would it be for? To sit and talk.... to eat... to hang out & relax. What kind of a evening would that be for a hero? A need to me was nothing to her. I was not at the edge of relapse, nor was I at the edge of death. I was not afraid. I simply wanted company. But that's no call for a hero. It was only a call for love. And that was not enough."
Sadness, Anger, Regret, & Obsessive thoughts are all natural components of the grieving process, but not knowing that can hook us back in.... back into unhealthy relationships. Due to deep sadness, or regret, or obsessive thoughts we re-consider, and try those crazy relationships again and again.
It's understandable. We want connection. How bout instead of (re)connecting with someone unhealthy, we try something new? How bout (re)connecting with self? How bout allowing for feelings of sadness, of regret, of anger, and how bout having those obsessive thoughts? How bout practicing something new; learning to hold uncomfortable feelings? Moments of regret? Because by holding them, they eventually let go.... because the only other thing they can do other then hold on, is let go. And with that, they're gone. Released. It may take a few times, but aren't you worth it? (The answer is YES!) Eventually, as you go through the grieving steps, you reach the last step of the process - ACCEPTANCE.
Acceptance for what is.
And in the meantime, while you're riding the emotional roller coaster, waiting to get to acceptance, you could practice new tools. One method that works super well for most is the stop sign technique - for example; for every obsessive thought that arises, imagine holding up your hand (like a stop sign) and powerfully using your amazing energy to send that thought away.
Take time to nurture yourself - take baths, naps, sip teas, listen to music, walk in the woods, watch funny movies or other enjoyable, distracting shows. Most importantly, practice ALLOWANCE. Decide that however you are is okay. Trust yourself, know that this will pass. Allowing leads to letting go, which leads to freedom. And once you reach a place of freedom, you're ready to re-design your life.
Give yourself plenty of time to heal and recover. Stay committed to your recovery. Practice acceptance & allowance. * Just like you would give acceptance & allowance to your best friend, give it to yourself. You are worth it!
Remember - Staying stuck keeps you stuck. Letting go and moving forward is recovery.
Breaking through this, or any challenge will lead to strength, new experience, confidence, and new life. You will become a strong, healthy, independent person.
There's an incredible phenomenon that occurs when people hang out together, especially on an ongoing basis. We actually start to bond to one another. It starts before we even see it; on an energy level. Our auras (the energy field we all have around us) touches, our feelers (think of energy-like fingers reaching out to discover the world around us) explore each other, and energetically we start to bond. Next, we start bonding on a physical level - through conversation, caring, eye contact, shared experiences, and so on. Before we know it, we have completely bonded. And.... in case you're still not sure, take note - we start talking like each other, we start thinking like each other, and then we make choices that the other would agree upon. The collective mind comes into effect. It's multi-faceted and it's one, all at the same time. As we walk the spiritual path, we start to pay attention to the company we keep. We take note of whether the group mind is a group we want to be part of our not. We start to notice our own individual thoughts and when we look at even one friend from the group we are no longer sure if we are in alignment. So.... we start to share with this one person our new perspective, our new understanding; we share this new path that we have discovered to find out if this bond can continue. There may be some interest, for perhaps the group is growing in the same way, at a similar pace. At other times, the group is not ready; and you want to break free. But it is painful. It's painful because there's a bond in place, on many levels, and while you recognize that you are no longer in alignment with this particular group consciousness, you don't know where else you belong. You also care about this person, or these people, so sometimes, you choose to continue to connect. But at what expense? What is it costing you to play so small? Especially when you know there's so much more available. It costs you vitality. It costs you joy. It costs you peace. It costs you continued growth.... aaah, you may grow, but it will be slower. Why allow those who are not ready to hold you back? A time will come where you will no longer tolerate the behaviors, situations, or circumstances that you once tolerated. You will recognize that the gossip, the chaos, the negativity no longer has a place in your life. All of this can be done in a way that feels supportive to you. No need to rush it. Honor yourself. Honor the process. Trust that you will find new people to bond with, new people to create the collective mind with - give yourself the chance by putting your focus in a new direction. Step out with confidence. Before you know it that incredible phenomenon will occur again, and it will be with those who help you to move forward, teach you new and wonderful things, and allow you to be your best self.
I was initially interested in Reiki to offer healing to my paternal grandmother who suffered many physical ailments throughout her life. The first time I visited her, after getting trained in Reiki I, I offered healing energy for her feet. I gave her a lot of Reiki, and once I was trained in level II Reiki, I was able to send it to her long distance (which was good b/c we lived in 2 different countries). Over the years it became easier for her to walk. She lived to be 96 years old. One of my favorite memories of our time together was when we went for walks. She would always find dimes, nickels, and quarters on the streets. She couldn't bend over to pick them up, but would point them out for me to pick up. One time we were walking through a park, lost in conversation when all of a sudden we noticed several men (in uniforms) running toward us.... to our surprise, we were walking through a football field, and to our greater surprise, we were walking through the middle of a football game! I still laugh today as I remember us "rushing" across that field. I put the word rushing in quotes because my grandmother was on crutches since she was a young adult and was not one to rush when on her feet. She was always grateful though, for that Reiki energy that gave her relief and allowed her many years of continued walking.
When I was a level 2 practitioner I offered long distance healing with a friend who was also level 2 Reiki. We sat together in my living room with the palms of our hands facing each other and sent Reiki to a womon in FL (from MA) who had cancer and was scheduled to have surgery. We sent her Reiki every night for 3 nights in a row. When she went into the hospital to have the surgery, they discovered the cancer was gone. This was a big break through for me! It gave me a new understanding in the healing power of Reiki. Before this experience, I attributed the healing experiences to coincidences, but after this happened, there was no doubt in my mind that Reiki truly does heal.
I later became a Reiki Master and started teaching Reiki. This has been one of my biggest joys! Being able to pass on this healing gift to others so that they can heal themselves and those they love is a true honor. I believe it is our birthright to have the ability to heal ourselves, and to offer this gift to others.
Reiki is an energy healing technique that is gentle and powerful at the same time. The wonderful thing about learning Reiki is that you can give this healing energy to yourself, your friends, your pets, your plants, your family. You can take it a step further and learn the 2nd level of Reiki which allows you to send it long distance to loved ones, to lands, and to larger communities. Second level Reiki also gives you permission to become a Reiki practitioner so that if you desire a way to bring in money through a healing arts modality, you could do this. It's great also for massage therapists, psychotherapists, nurses, mental health workers, gardeners, people who work with animals, and so on; to learn this healing art. Master level Reiki gives you a higher level of healing power and teaches you how to teach Reiki to others.
Reiki II example - (remote Reiki). If you have a loved one who could use some healing, you can send a long distance healing session. For example if a loved one in CA needs healing/support, you can send them healing energy and they will receive it, even without you having to get on a plane and fly out to see them in person.
I've been practicing Reiki since 1998, and have taught Reiki to many people over the years. Reiki is an energy-based healing modality; the energy comes from the universal life force; it doesn't drain you because you're using the energy that exists in the universe that is available to all of us. The point of getting attuned to Reiki, by someone who is attuned (or open) to Reiki, is that you also become opened to be able to channel the healing energy from the universe to you / through you and into someone else. The great thing about Reiki is anyone can do it!! Everyone is capable of it! The other great thing is, you get to receive the healing energy as your channeling it through for someone else, therefore everyone wins!
Imagine water flowing from a river, through a pipe, and into another body of water - this is Reiki - energy flowing from the universe, through you (or me), and into another person.
Reiki I: Become initiated into Reiki, get attuned to be able to channel the healing energy; learn the history including the great teachers, take a journey to find your Reiki guide in spirit; learn how to do a self healing. Physical level healing.
Reiki II: Get attuned to the symbols of healing; learn how to use the symbols that will enhance healing, learn how to give a long distance healing treatment; learn how to offer Reiki healing treatments on others. This level of Reiki certification allows you to become a Reiki Practitioner, if you desire to do so. Emotional & Mental level healing.
Reiki III is master level: Get attuned to master level symbols; learn how to pass an attunement on others, practice teaching Reiki. Spirit & Soul healing.
Interested parties should contact me directly, either by phone or using the contact form on this website.
The system I teach is Unlimited Reiki / Usui tradition.
So many times I heard people talk about zip lining with such enthusiasm. In fact it wasn't long before I did it that someone suggested we, a group I belong to all do it together - I thought - no way! But then, she, a lovely friend, suggested it & I didn't hesitate. I found myself saying, sure I'll do that!
I checked it out online first - an aerial obstacle course with zip lining. Sure, no problem, I thought to myself. Mind you, prior to this moment, I had been the least confident person in my body ever, especially when it came to anything that took coordination and balance. Plus, I was afraid of heights!
There were three options and of course, everyone in the group I was with wanted to do the most difficult one! I chose the beginner's. The friend who had invited me along, was a good sport, and did the "easy" course with me. She stayed by me the whole time, even as I I shook as I moved across each obstacle, and even though my friend is super coordinated and fearless, she was a good sport and a good support; and stayed with me. I moved slowly along, coaching myself the whole time. The rest of the group finished the course long before me and repeated it a couple of times.
My whole body shook as I moved from one obstacle to the next. In amazement, I made it through swinging ropes, the uneven steps, the ladders, and so on. At one point, I was up in the air going across a rope ladder - from one tree to the other, and while I was mid-way I started laughing. I laughed out loud! I was laughing at myself for attempting to move across this rope, mid-air, as if I was in good shape (which I wasn't) as if I knew how to climb a rope going sideways 30 feet up (which I didn't) but now I was in the middle of it - I had made it to there, so it only made sense to keep going! Knowing the best thing I could do is step upward... because the plank on the other end was further up than the one I started on, I reached my leg out and landed on a piece of rope. Can you guess? My foot went down! Now I had to climb up & across at the same time in order to get to the other side. I coached myself through the entire thing. I told myself "you can do it, trust yourself" and I did! Phew!!
Next came the zip lines - the words from the Matrix (one of my favorite movies) came to me - 'don't think about it, just do it' - It took several minutes to get my courage up. My friend waited on the other end of the line while I psyched myself up for it. At last I took the plunge! And there I was flying across the mountain waaaaaay up high!! And I yelled out loud as I went across. It was actually fun! But, each time I got to one end of the mountain, I had to get up onto a plank, go to the other side, and get onto another line. Each time I went through the same process of getting my courage up, using the words from the Matrix - "don't think about it, just do it" and by the end, the last few lines, I was zipping down that mountain having the time of my life!
One of the biggest things I learned that day was, I can do it! My body is capable. I have the strength, the coordination, the balance, and the know-how. It amazed me that my body just operated - before I even had a chance to think about what I needed to do, my body was doing it!
Toward the end, (on the second to last line) I was going across and didn't quite have enough umph to make it to the plank.... I started going back in the other direction, and ended up getting stuck in the middle! Now, before this moment, I would have thought I would have panicked, but I didn't! I just "hung out" there! What else could I do? I hung out there... and eventually a worker came along and through a rope over the line. He told me to hold onto it and he pulled me to the other end. It was in slow motion compared to how I had whipped across those lines and when I got to the plank it took all my strength to pull myself up onto it. I did it!
That day I learned how to count on my body's strength, coordination, and balance. To my surprise and delight, I learned it wasn't something I had to learn or even figure out, I just needed to trust.
Truth, Freedom, Ease, & Conviction
I had been self-employed for 15 years offering psychic readings, life coaching, Reiki/shamanic healing treatments. I was teaching meditation, Reiki certification, and psychic development when all of a sudden my next step in life became clear - I decided to go back to school. Many years prior, I had completed an associates degree in occupational therapy assisting; I completed the 2 years of study right on time for insurances across the country to stop paying for OTA services. Ugh!
Now, 10 years later, it was time to consider a higher education. I was drawn to social worker since I was a in high school, and decided to was time to pursue it. My goal of going back to school was that I could apply what I was already doing, combined with that which I would learn in school and be able to take insurances, which would enable me to reach more people / bigger populations. Bringing my alternative healing methods combined with new, clinical skills from studying social work inspired me. It would be an honor to provide more people the opportunity to embrace my services, which of course, excited me, and ultimately would excite them. I loved the idea of helping others heal and get empowered in who they truly are!
I completed a BA in Liberal Arts with a minor in holistic psychology not long before applying to Springfield College, School of Social Work for a masters degree. My initial reaction after receiving the acceptance letter was disbelief - obstacles started presenting themselves right away: Was I sure this is what I wanted to do? Is now the right time? How will my child do in the after school program? Perhaps I should wait until the kids are older…. Sabotaging possibilities just kept on coming. Although I knew this would actualize my dreams, I was faced with great fear! As always, when faced with such fear, I meditate. Just sit and breathe. Talk to spirit. Trust in the universe. Obviously if I got accepted, it must be a path meant for me to follow..... Then, with this reality, an excitement started to swell up inside me. New questions entered my thoughts: Are my dreams really going to come true? Am I actually going to do this? Is it possible for me?
The process had started, and as each layer was being peeled back, I got closer to my core self; the self that desired, the self that believed, the self that brought me through the doors of Springfield College, School of Social Work; and two years later brought me out the other side, with a masters degree in my hand.
But... let me go back a bit. I'd like to share a piece of the process that lead me to those very doors, a process that created the desire in my heart, a place that knows oh-so well what it takes to heal, and then come out on the other side; come through those doors and into a place of the empowered-self.
It was December, 2007 and my paternal grandmother died. I wanted to go to her funeral, but was faced with the biggest fear of my life: my father. Although I realized he wasn't the monster I saw when I was a child, I hadn't spoken to him for more than 15 years, and wasn't planning to change that. It was the way I decided to protect myself, and to make a stand for myself as an adult. I would not have the one who abused me in my life. But it was my grandmother who I remembered so fondly, many fun and wonderful memories, memories of laughter and connection. My first thought was to bring someone with me, but who can one bring to a funeral? It’s not like inviting someone to a movie or dinner.
As usual (since I was about 19 years old), I meditated; and because of my strong desire to be there, I was able to leap into action, in spite of fear. First, I made some calls and made arrangements to stay with friends (the funeral was out of the country). I traveled by bus.... I remember sitting in their dining room watching the clock in anticipation. They had gone to work, so I had the house to myself... time was ticking by as it got closer to the time that I would take the taxi to the funeral home. I hadn't seen or talked to my father for several years, but based on past experience, he played many roles well - child, victim, “nice” guy, charmer. I knew them all.
Using a variety of self-empowering tools, I stepped into the funeral home where I was greeted by relatives and friends. I was relieved when my cousin walked right over and embraced me in a hug. Next, her mother, my father’s sister-in-law, held me close and commented that I was trembling. She pulled me aside and started to share memories of my grandmother. She was always the understanding one in the family, someone I felt supported by throughout childhood and teen years.
After a while, my father approached me and asked if we could talk for a few minutes. For the first time, there was no fear present in me. There was no background noise about the past. There was just me standing there looking at my father. At the time, I was absolutely mystified. Literally, I engaged in a conversation with my father with complete freedom and ease. What happened? Did the 20 + years of therapy finally pay off? What was going to happen next? Would I actually have a relationship with my father? And if so, what would it look like?
When I was 23 (approximately 15 years earlier), memories of abuse came flooding into my morning meditations and disrupted my spiritual practices. Until that year, I completely blocked out all memories. That was when I stopped talking to my father, and announced to certain family members the truth of my childhood abuse. To my dismay, my family continued to have a relationship with my father, yet cast me aside as though something was wrong with me. I found this to be mind-boggling. Is it human nature to shun the victim instead of the abuser? Is it that much easier to deal with what's comfortable than to face hard truths? It seemed convenient for them to continue accepting my father as they had known him rather than facing the truth of the damage he had caused. Over the years, the members of my father’s family would tell me things like, “He’s your father. You should have a relationship with him no matter what. He misses you. He loves you.” Truly, they were living in a state of illusion. Truly, they had no concept of my experience, but only stayed stuck in their experience of who they knew my father to be. Who cares if he's a child molester, rapist, or murderer? He plays a great game of golf!
When I recognized that I had been accepted to Springfield College, School of Social Work I knew it was time to step up. It was no longer about letting the fear of my past make my decisions, but rather, it was time to acknowledge the fear, and do it anyway. It was time to break free of the constraints of the past, and step into my true calling.
The significance of looking at my childhood, figuring out the patterns that were carried into adulthood, and doing the work to heal and create my future has been extraordinary. My life now is based on the present, not the past. In fact, my father is in my life now and he has contributed so much to my adult life. He was not emotionally or mentally well when I was a child, but he, like me, has evolved. He has deep sadness and regret for his actions of the past, and this is something he lives with every day. I am not responsible for his actions of the past, how he deals with them or ignores them now, or adjusting his karma. I am only responsible for myself, and I figured out how I could have my dad in my life. I keep clear boundaries; I only visit him in public places; I decide when I want to see him or talk to him, and when it doesn't work for me, I speak up, because I have a voice. I am an empowered adult. I have the ability to choose for myself. I am no longer a scared little child that has to stay stuck in a chaotic home. I am a healthy adult that created her own beautiful and peaceful home, and I get to decide who enters my space; I get to decide who I interact with, and when; and I get to live my life with truth and conviction.
The past will keep coming up, over and over again, until it is faced and transformed. The point is though.... we already survived our past. It's over. It can't be changed, but we can change. We can heal who we are, we can truly be who we are now, whoever we want to be now. We can powerfully choose for ourselves, as adults, to live from a place of possibility; to live from a place of freedom & ease, a place of unconditional love and of contribution.
Experiences effect how life is lived and until they are overcome, we continue to live from the past, not the present. We make decisions based on what a 2 year old, a 7 year old, 14 or a 17 year old decided. But that was all based on what we knew then! Yah us! We figured out how to survive! I thank myself over and over again for surviving so much; for making decisions that kept me as safe as I could be kept at a time that I didn't have a lot of power. But now, I have all the power in the world. I have myself - strong me, empowered me, healed me. I create every day of my life, and I live my life!
Supriya Shanti practices coming from a place of contribution, unconditional love, freedom, & ease in all areas of her life. She is passionate about sharing her knowledge, insight, and healing abilities with all who come to her.