One of my favorite movies is The Matrix. Here are a few points that I love about this movie;
Why am I sharing these clips from this movie? I am using them as metaphors to make some points. It's a chance to both share a bit about me and also give you some thoughts about what's possible if you choose to work with me.
Living two Lives - that has felt like my life at times, especially when I've worked by day at a mundane job because at night, whether it be after "work" or during my sleeping state, I get all kinds of requests! Requests from those I knew and those I never knew who have died and are now in spirit, requests from Shamans, Angels, Guides, and other Energies. I also get all kinds of information - information about what's to come, for myself as well as those in my life, for my clients, and for people I don't even know. Sometimes, I get a "download" (that's what I call it) and I have no idea who it's for... then I meet the person that it's for and a flash of the download goes through me - that's how I know that information is for this person. Of course, I then share it. But sometimes, I've done a ton of spiritual work during the night - talking to different souls, visiting people, and tying loose ends. Sometimes, I end up making tough decisions during the day (tough for me on a personal level) because I know what's coming or what's needed and I know that ultimately I am a Spiritual Healer working for the better-ment of the universe, for all souls. Of course, I get to practice my own lessons - lessons of attachment, of letting go, insecurities, and mostly to practice stepping into what I teach, over and over again, being unstoppable in creating a life I love, facing fears and doing it anyway, and being confident and empowered in my choices of life.
Blue or Red? Of course, I chose to go down the rabbit hole, and anyone else who has made this choice, knows there's no going back! Once you choose to go down the rabbit hole, and essentially discover the truth of the universe, you know too much, and there's no going back; and who would want to? Maybe in the very beginning... when you know what you know, but you still remember what it was like to choose from the illusion, you could go back, but even then, it's like being on a bridge and having to decide which way to go - do you go back to where you were? Or do you keep moving forward? Moving forward takes you into the unknown.... think of it as an adventure, make it a game - something that is fun for you to explore. The point is.... keep exploring, keep going deeper into the rabbit hole / into the universe and discover it! Discover yourself. This is where you will find your true self. Don't think you are, know it. / What are you waiting for? / I can only show you the door, you have to walk through it. This is when I come in.... as your guide, your mentor, your therapist, your psychic/medium - whatever name you want to give me; that is your choice, and so is walking through that door.
"How can my need for companionship ever compare to her need, when her need is of such severity? She would tell me she couldn't possibly leave her side for if she did something terrible may happen. She may use drugs! She may drink alcohol! Or something even worse could occur..... If she left her side, what would it be for? To sit and talk.... to eat... to hang out & relax. What kind of a evening would that be for a hero? A need to me was nothing to her. I was not at the edge of relapse, nor was I at the edge of death. I was not afraid. I simply wanted company. But that's no call for a hero. It was only a call for love. And that was not enough."
Sadness, Anger, Regret, & Obsessive thoughts are all natural components of the grieving process, but not knowing that can hook us back in.... back into unhealthy relationships. Due to deep sadness, or regret, or obsessive thoughts we re-consider, and try those crazy relationships again and again.
It's understandable. We want connection. How bout instead of (re)connecting with someone unhealthy, we try something new? How bout (re)connecting with self? How bout allowing for feelings of sadness, of regret, of anger, and how bout having those obsessive thoughts? How bout practicing something new; learning to hold uncomfortable feelings? Moments of regret? Because by holding them, they eventually let go.... because the only other thing they can do other then hold on, is let go. And with that, they're gone. Released. It may take a few times, but aren't you worth it? (The answer is YES!) Eventually, as you go through the grieving steps, you reach the last step of the process - ACCEPTANCE.
Acceptance for what is.
And in the meantime, while you're riding the emotional roller coaster, waiting to get to acceptance, you could practice new tools. One method that works super well for most is the stop sign technique - for example; for every obsessive thought that arises, imagine holding up your hand (like a stop sign) and powerfully using your amazing energy to send that thought away.
Take time to nurture yourself - take baths, naps, sip teas, listen to music, walk in the woods, watch funny movies or other enjoyable, distracting shows. Most importantly, practice ALLOWANCE. Decide that however you are is okay. Trust yourself, know that this will pass. Allowing leads to letting go, which leads to freedom. And once you reach a place of freedom, you're ready to re-design your life.
Give yourself plenty of time to heal and recover. Stay committed to your recovery. Practice acceptance & allowance. * Just like you would give acceptance & allowance to your best friend, give it to yourself. You are worth it!
Remember - Staying stuck keeps you stuck. Letting go and moving forward is recovery.
Breaking through this, or any challenge will lead to strength, new experience, confidence, and new life. You will become a strong, healthy, independent person.
There's an incredible phenomenon that occurs when people hang out together, especially on an ongoing basis. We actually start to bond to one another. It starts before we even see it; on an energy level. Our auras (the energy field we all have around us) touches, our feelers (think of energy-like fingers reaching out to discover the world around us) explore each other, and energetically we start to bond. Next, we start bonding on a physical level - through conversation, caring, eye contact, shared experiences, and so on. Before we know it, we have completely bonded. And.... in case you're still not sure, take note - we start talking like each other, we start thinking like each other, and then we make choices that the other would agree upon. The collective mind comes into effect. It's multi-faceted and it's one, all at the same time. As we walk the spiritual path, we start to pay attention to the company we keep. We take note of whether the group mind is a group we want to be part of our not. We start to notice our own individual thoughts and when we look at even one friend from the group we are no longer sure if we are in alignment. So.... we start to share with this one person our new perspective, our new understanding; we share this new path that we have discovered to find out if this bond can continue. There may be some interest, for perhaps the group is growing in the same way, at a similar pace. At other times, the group is not ready; and you want to break free. But it is painful. It's painful because there's a bond in place, on many levels, and while you recognize that you are no longer in alignment with this particular group consciousness, you don't know where else you belong. You also care about this person, or these people, so sometimes, you choose to continue to connect. But at what expense? What is it costing you to play so small? Especially when you know there's so much more available. It costs you vitality. It costs you joy. It costs you peace. It costs you continued growth.... aaah, you may grow, but it will be slower. Why allow those who are not ready to hold you back? A time will come where you will no longer tolerate the behaviors, situations, or circumstances that you once tolerated. You will recognize that the gossip, the chaos, the negativity no longer has a place in your life. All of this can be done in a way that feels supportive to you. No need to rush it. Honor yourself. Honor the process. Trust that you will find new people to bond with, new people to create the collective mind with - give yourself the chance by putting your focus in a new direction. Step out with confidence. Before you know it that incredible phenomenon will occur again, and it will be with those who help you to move forward, teach you new and wonderful things, and allow you to be your best self.
There was a time when I was psychically open all the time. I saw"ghosts" everywhere, heard people's thoughts, cries, joys, and rage. Spirits were showing up in my bedroom, bathroom, and car demanding help.... talk about being overwhelmed! Not to mention, needing to set boundaries! I was helping so many people who were no longer in the physical body, I was literally providing therapy & not getting paid for it.
In recognizing this, I knew it was time to get a hold on my abilities, to become the master of my abilities vs. having them run the show). I started by telling spirits they weren't allowed to just show up and demand my attention. I became bigger than them by knowing my own spirit self as well as my physical self. I became stronger in myself by noting that my physical experiences had already put me through enough and that they couldn't scare me b/c I had already survived so much. I recognized my self-worthiness, and with this I could choose. I could choose when I wanted to be open and when I wanted privacy. (This works well in the physical world too, btw!)
I shut down certain parts of my psychic self so that I wouldn't see or hear everyone else's stuff all the time. I learned how to ground and center myself and I also learned how to open myself, but it was all based on what worked for me. It was no longer about what everyone else needed.
And from this place, I feel grateful. I am grateful for my abilities. I am grateful to be able to offer guidance to others. I recognize the importance of not allowing the psychic world to run me, b/c living in the physical world is important as well. I offer readings to folks who seek it and who exchange with me for my skills, either by providing their skills to me or by paying me monetarily (since I do live in this physical world). I do have a channel open for some spirits to seek assistance, and when they come I do respond. This is my way of serving the greater picture. I know that by serving spirits it supports the whole. Sometimes, I work with a person in physical form and a person in spirit form at the same time. For example I may help a womon (in physical form) and her sister (in spirit form) complete a relationship that didn't get completed while they were both in physical form. I may also help the spirit move on to a more peaceful place. By offering this service, I am helping both souls and ultimately, I am helping the greater evolution of humanity and the universe.
Supriya Shanti practices coming from a place of contribution, unconditional love, freedom, & ease in all areas of her life. She is passionate about sharing her knowledge, insight, and healing abilities with all who come to her.