Flowing from the Center

Me & Aunt Anne

How can I flow from the center when I'm all over the place? 
How can I flow from the center, when I'm so exhausted it feels normal to be exhausted? (Which by the way it is not normal to be exhausted).
How can I flow from the center when the one person who has always been there for me is dying?
How can I flow from the center when I'm too exhausted to notice that I'm no longer centered?

She taught me how to love unconditionally by loving me unconditionally.
She taught me that every moment can be filled with beauty if that is how you create it.
         The simplest meal would be served on the most beautiful dishes.... dishes of green, orange, purple, blue, and pink.
         There would be a center piece with crystals and flowers at every meal. Every meal was special because she brought beauty.
She taught me generosity, kindness, patience, laughter.
Oh,how we laughed!
           And we still laugh. As she sits up in her wheelchair, refusing to let go of any quality of life, even while she's dying.
           She does not feel well. She knows she's dying. Yet she refuses to give in to letting go of the quality of life. 
Decadence, that's what she always said. Chocolate, Beautiful hotel rooms, Colorful clothes, Laughter, Love, Oceans, Dolphins, 
I AM.
Flowing back to my Center.
From this place I create.
From this place I flow with life.
From this place I choose.
From this place I spend so many moments. As many as I can with her. While she is on this physical planet.
From this place I am connected.
From this place I flow with her spirit.
From this place I experience her
And you,
And all there is.

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